i’m not sure i have it in me to accomplish much today. being at the office from 7:30-6 yesterday did me in.
i feel like i am working way too much. i am happy tomorrow is friday. phil is happy again. i was contacted by a headhunter today which made me feel good. i ate a chocolate long john and chicken fries (yes, BK!). i walked to get that donut and after my chicken fries i went to the gym. that is all.
I was interviewing a top psychiatrist today for an article on suicide. Every time he mentioned a possible example or a previous case, he used female patients and used examples of issues that women and young girls face that would lead them to commit suicide or attempt it. To prep for the interview I had read the statistics for suicide around the world from the World Health Organisation, which said men were more likely than women to commit suicide. So his repeated and exclusive use of women as examples, describing them (in what he thought was nice terms, I’m sure) as irrational, emotional or prone to “rash” attempted suicides piqued my interest. I asked him if the rates were different in Bahrain, if more women than men committed suicide. He said no.
And yet – when faced with a question about reasons behind suicide, all he could think about were women and their emotions. Our conversation was in Arabic, so you can’t be gender-neutral. I asked him a question and posed it using the masculine, and he answered that the problem there may be high expectations, or a parent believing that their son should be a doctor, engineer, or top businessman without taking into account their son’s aptitude.
Phil’s sister called Monday night to tell us she is getting married on the Saturday before Thanksgiving. I think it is kind of a backyard affair and I REALLY want to buy this dress to wear.
it’s been a tough week at our house. my mental health is in tact but phil is struggling a bit. is it fucking with me a little bit considering the shit we were dealing with about this time two years ago? yes it is. but luckily i feel strong and i can help him (well as best as i can).
arcanex said: Hello! Sorry to just pop up out of nowhere but I saw your post under the Zoloft tag and I was hoping you could maybe answer a few questions about it? I just started taking it about two/three weeks ago and while I know it takes time I'm already feeling better, but not totally. I just really want to conquer depression and you seem to have done an amazing job. Do you have any other tips? I've heard that exercising really helps depression - did it help you if you did exercise? Sorry to bug you!
First, you are not bugging me! All I wanted when I was going through hard stuff was to have someone I could talk to who could relate and answer my questions and let me know it would all be OK at some point.
It does take time for the medicine to get into your system. I think when you feel better it’s more of knowing that you have something that is going to help. I know personally, having that prescription in my hand made me feel so much more hopeful.
Remember, that medicine is only part of the solution. Make sure you are taking care of yourself. Exercise is a great way to do this. It releases endorphins. I think it helps increase your self-confidence as well.
You also have to address what might be making you feel the way you are, if you know what that is. You can’t just ignore it. In my case I was dealing with a situation that lead me down the path of anxiety and depression. I had to have lots of hard conversations. Journaling help a lot too.
I’m not sure if you drink at all, but I’d try to cut it out or at least back initially. It’s totally a depressant and can totally emphasize all of those terrible feelings you are trying to rid yourself of.
You took a great step in helping yourself already so just keep it up.
I’m always here to answer questions. You are never bugging me. And finally mental health can be such a bitch.